Confusion of Life

Im feeling lost in this thing called Life;

Struggling day to day trying to Live my life right

Wondering should I take flight;

Rather than stay in this to fight?

Suffocated from this thing called Pain;

Wishing for a better day but yet things still remain the same.

Hate and Envy tries to consume thee;

While the Devil tries to put in work to devour me.

Trying to feed off of my Sanity;

Dear Lord "this cant be happening"!

But I always got the Lord on my side;

Who made a promise that I'm be alright.

He sent His army full of angels to watch over me;

God knows my purpose for whom I'm suppose to be.

This war is not an easy one;

Life isn't over it has just begun........

I AM WHO I AM....... "Motivational"

I am loved

I am beautiful

I am somebody

I am a good person

I will do good things

I am never giving up

I am strong

I love God

I believe in Him

I believe in Me

I love life

I am going to overcome my hardships, trials and tribulations

I love myself

I am gifted

I am motivated

I am a survivor

I am loving

Eternal Bliss.....

Longing for that sweet touch of your warm embrace;
looking into your eyes and how bright they sparkle like Diamonds upon your face.

Dreaming of our bodies first meeting;
envisioning how our silhouette's dance by candlelight.

Soft music playing in the background;
and setting the mood just right.

While enjoying a romantic dinner for two;
our warm bath is drawn to help relax our souls.

Rose pedals lead the trail to the bed;
with the sheets made of the finest Egyptain threads.

Incenses are burning through the air.
While our lips join for a kiss like no other can compare.

Whispering sweet nothings in each others ear;
there's only one person to whom I'd like to share this with.

Our hearts will be joined forever in Eternal Bliss.
Through sickness and in health til death do us part.

Your the one I want to spend the rest of my life with from the bottom of
my HEART.

Change

Im free to be me and that's how its gonna be...... been a prisoner of yours for too long while living unhappily. No more pain, hurt and anger will be left inside of me, I've gotten a promise from GOD that he will Heal and Protect me. Patch up my wounds and fill my heart with glee. I feel Him changing me from inside oh can't you see?!! Im a new person now Im filled with Love and not Hate. If you don't change your Evil ways you are gonna meet your Fate. I don't know if you are ready for him but he's coming for you, so clean up your evil ways and right all the wrongs that you do. Dot all of your I's and cross all of your T's..... get down on your knees to pray for forgiveness and to have mercy on you. God says there's room up in HEAVEN but; all won't make it  but just a Few.

Random Thoughts

My mind is cloudy and so is my judgement. I'm confused and don't know what to do but yet I'm still in love with you. I'm stressed, depressed and all cried out. Don't know where I went wrong and what's this about. I'm hurting inside and can't find my way. Guess I gotta keep praying for a better day. For someday we can walk hand & hand.Oh, how  I wonder what's God's plan. Plan for us and where would we be? Is it walkind down the isle in holy matrimony? My life is a wreck and I can't see why, but I ask you Dear Lord give us a sign. Please help my family make the right decision and give a blessing while having mercy on me. This is your child Toya crying out desperately!!